So you like to watch…

1996

Spring semester had just begun, the arctic air cut through me like a knife, chilling me to the bone as I walked across campus. It was my first, and only semester living in the dorms. As my numb fingers turned the key to the upper campus dormitory, I cursed winter.

Fuck, why do I live where it’s so fucking cold.

“Cold enough for you Mae?” a student asked as I walked down the hall. I just smiled.

My dorm room, a rectangle shaped room with a wardrobe, a bed with a shelf above it and a built in desk. One set up running along each side. Not much bigger than a prison cell. At least my roommate wasn’t in much, because two people occupying a 12×8 square foot room is close quarters. With it being cold and dark for most of the spring semester I was happy to spend most of my time with my boyfriend, Scott at his parents house. Warm, spacious and inviting wins over cold, dark and cramped any day of the week.

On a particularly sunny day in early March, I was hanging outside, I just didn’t have it in me to go to class. As I was wandering by the library I noticed and recognize someone from High School. Ann was a keep to herself kinda person that I had been friends with in school, and here she was sitting in front of the library looking lost. So I talked to her, invited her up to my dorm room for the afternoon. Since neither of us were in the mood to attend classes. We talked, caught up on life events and started hanging out together.

Ann and I reestablished our friendship from high school, hanging out and going shopping she helped me pick out a semi formal black dress for my spring choral concert. She was good at that sort of thing and I hated buying clothes. She even got along with Scott, which I appreciated since we were spending so much time together. 

Ann had always had long, straight dirty blonde hair that hung to the center of her back. Unlike mine that hung just past my shoulders and was a darker shade of blonde. Ann decided that she wanted a change. So we went to the salon and she became a shoulder length red head. It fit her well, her slim, petite frame and deep blue eyes were reenergized by the new cut and color.

As a snowstorm moved in late one afternoon, Ann, Scott and I decided to hang out in my dorm room till it passed. My roommate had gone out with her friends. So it was just the three of us, armed with some snacks and drinks. We made ourselves comfortable, Scott and I on my bed and Ann across from us on my roommate’s bed. We ate, chatted and listened to music. To make the room not so gloomy my roommate had put up some Christmas lights, strung along the shelf above each bed. Which gave the room a warm red and green glow.

It was a little after seven when Scott reached into his backpack and pulled out a small bottle of whiskey.

“Yes?” he asked as he held up the bottle displaying it to the room.

“Sure, Ann?”

“Why not, I don’t think we’re going anywhere,” she answered as she looked out the window that was now half covered in snow.

Scott cracked the seal, took a long pull from the bottle and passed it over to Ann. She sniffed it, wrinkled her nose and took a drink. She handed it to me, I took a swallow and handed it back to Scott.

“Smooth,” Ann said.

Scott went over to the window, took another long pull and set the bottle on the desk.

“We’re definitely not going anywhere tonight,”

Scott turned, looking at Ann and I, and grinned.

“Up for some fun?”

“Depends on what you mean,” I said.

He picked up my 35mm camera that I use for my black and white photography class.

“How much film do you have?”

“Enough,” I answered getting up off the bed.

“What do you have in mind?”

“Just a little fun,” he said leaning over and kissing me.

“You, game?” I asked looking over at Ann.

I took the camera from Scott and proceed to take pictures of Ann.

She wasn’t shy and played to the camera. Getting on her knees, arching her back and pouting her lips.

“Nice,” Scott said.

Ann got off the bed and took the camera from me.

“Your turn,”

I laid on the bed and stretched out.

“Lose the shirt,” Scott said. Ann and I just looked at him.

“Seriously?”

“Yeah, it’s just us, all in fun. You develop your own film, so why not,”

I took off my shirt, turned to face the wall, on my knees and took off my bra. I looked back over my shoulders at Ann and she took my picture. I laid down on my side with my arm draped over my bare breasts and she took my picture.

Scott was now standing behind Ann taking off his shirt. He leaned into her and whispered something she nodded in agreement. He laid behind me, moved my arm to my side and kissed my neck. Ann took our picture.

I kept watching Ann’s eyes as Scott unbuttoned, unzipped and removed my jeans. I turned over onto my back, he hooked his thumbs into the sides of my panties and pulled them off. He looked over at Ann, she nodded and kept shooting.

Scott pushed my legs apart and lowered himself down between my thighs kissing my pussy. Then pushing his tongue inside of me and licking. Ann moved closer, now kneeling on the floor next to my head, and looking down my body at Scott. He looked up at her while eating me out, and she took the picture. I closed my eyes and enjoyed Scott’s tongue probing my clit.

Ann watched and photographed as Scott and I fucked.

After Scott whispered in my ear.

“Did you like that?”

“Yes, I did,”

“I think Ann deserves something, don’t you?”

“Yes, she dose,”

He kissed me and got up, grabbed the bottle and sat on the bed next to Ann. He took a drink and handed her the bottle.

“So, do you like to participate as much as you like to watch?”

Ann smiled at him and took a drink.

“Maybe, what did you have in mind?”

Scott leaned over and kissed her neck.

“Depends on what you want,” he whispered in her ear.

“I kinda want her,” Ann said nodding towards me.

“Really?” Scott asked moving back from her.

Ann shrugged her shoulders and smiled.

“Can I watch?” Scott asked.

Ann moved closer and kissed him.

“Yes you can, you can even participate,”

Ann stood up and shed her clothes.

“You’re definitely a natural blonde,” Scott commented.

Ann laid next to me and ran her fingers along my side. She bent down and kissed me, gently at first then harder, I could taste her strawberry lip gloss. I parted my lips and felt her tongue slide into my mouth. I sucked on her tongue and she grabbed the back of my neck and kisses me back. Her soft skin pushing up against me, she smelled of vanilla. She caressed my breast, pinching my nipple. She kissed down my neck, over my collarbone to my breast. Taking my nipple into her mouth, she flicked her tongue over and around, then sucking.

Ann ran her hand down my stomach to my pussy. She slid her fingers into me, working her fingers back and forth. She moved up to my ear and whispered.

“I want to make you cum,”

I moaned and glance over at Scott. He was laying on my roommate’s bed, stroking his cock watching us.

Ann looked over at Scott and gave him a come here motion with her fingers. Scott came over and sat on the edge of the bed. He leaned over and kissed me, then he kissed Ann.

The three of us laid on the bed, rubbing, caressing and kissing on each other. Ann’s fingers working my pussy, her thumb rubbing back and forth on my clit. Scott stroking his cock pushing up against my thigh, while he watched Ann and I making out.

“Cum for me,” Ann said.

I arched my back, pushing against her fingers and came. She removed her fingers from me and slid them into her mouth. Scott reached over and grabbed her wrist. He pulled her fingers to his mouth and licked them off. He got up off the bed and pulled Ann off the bed with him. He handed me the camera that had been set on the shelf above the bed. I took it and sat up. He led Ann over to the other bed and had her get on her hands and knees. He kneeled behind her, sliding his cock up and down her pussy.

“Do you want me to cum in you or on you?” he asked her.

Ann looked over at me and answered.

“In me,”

Scott slid his cock into her tight, slick pussy. I held up the camera and took the picture. He moved quicker, thrusting deeper into her, she let out a moan pushed back against him. I moved closer to them and took another picture. I put the camera down and kneeled in front of Ann, I kissed her while Scott fucked her.

We finished off the bottle of whiskey and passed out.

It was a warm day in April when I developed the three rolls of film we had shoot during the snowstorm. I printed every picture, replaying the night in my mind. By the time I had finished all 72 black and white photos, I was incredibly horny.

Scott’s parents were out of town for the weekend and we were house sitting while they were gone. I invited Ann to come hangout with us for the weekend. We made a nice dinner and cracked open a bottle of wine. Ann and I were sitting on the couch in the living room, flipping through the photos.

 

Life as It Is…

 

Vinyl-records-620x350Maybe it’s the hour or the time of year, but I have decided to write this. More just to get it out of my system and to see what it looks like on paper. I have tried writing about my dad a few different times and it never seems to sound right.

I wrote this the other day:

Srow
It’s one of those days.
Even though you’ve been gone for quite awhile now.
It still stings, without warning thoughts of you drift in.
Demanding my attention, causing tears to well up.
I will always remember you.

While thinking about my dad, I have day like that where the memories flood in with out warning. To be honest they have been flooding in more often lately, starting to face my own mortality. My dad had his first heartatack at age 41, (I am 41) scary thought.

I am going to put this up, however I will be back to work on it.

It was a dark and stormy night…

I was born in Pullman Washington, the day after Mother’s Day, May 10, 1976. There were compilations, I had two seizures and spent two weeks in an incubator.

My parents…

My mom was born and raised in Seattle and my dad grew up in Wenatchee WA. They meet at Washington State University in Pullman WA in 1973. They were married on June 22, 1974.

My dad worked in radio he had a BA in journalism and communications. I have a photo of him performing in a play called “Under Papa’s Picture.”

My mother has a masters degree in early childhood development and has mainly worked for non-profits as a case manger testing children’s learning abilities.

My brother was born January 14th 1980, a healthy baby boy named Chip. In May of 1981 my parents moved to Alaska. McGrath AK, in the middle of nowhere.

Where my dad ran the public radio station KSKO 870 am and my mom worked for various social work agencies. She also tried running her own daycare for a while. Needless to say it was a isolated, structured upbringing, school, work, activities ect..

My youngest brother was born November 12th 1982, Marcus. In 1988 we moved to Fairbanks AK, where my dad was unemployed for two years while my mom worked (he wrote a sci-fi novel) while unemployed. Side note I never got to read it and it’s lost forever, at least to me.

In 1990 my dad went in for an interview at a radio station, and ended up  being News Director of KTVF an NBC affiliate in Fairbanks. My dad suffered his first heart attack in September 91.

In April of  1992 I got to travel to New York and sing in Carnegie Hall with my high school choir, I was 15 years old.

In November of 92 my mom moved out, she left. She also let a con-man of a boyfriend move in and bleed her dry financially and emotionally. He ended up marrying some girl he meet on-line after spending five years with my mom.  

My dad got remarried May 22, 1995 to a strange German lady he met penpall style that was from New York. On Tuesday June 13, 1995 after returning from his honeymoon my dad was having chest pains and went to the hospital. He refused treatment and signed out AMA Wednesday afternoon, on the morning of Thursday June 15 he suffered a massive heart attack and passed away around 1:15 am. My dad’s widow was nice enough to hold his funeral on Father’s Day.

The insurance was a mess, because I was an adult, (I was 19) and my brothers were minors and my mom was divorced. My dad had never added his new wife, I got my share in cash and my brothers were set up with a guardian account my mother being the guardian. The money let me go to school and move away from my mother.

I went to the University of Alaska Fairbanks, (the piece I wrote called Tripping Through My Memories is the first semester after my dad died) I didn’t finish, I ran out of money and didn’t see a point in it at the time.

Thoughts on Cooking

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Ok, I have been bitten by the inspiration bug. I tried not writing this blog for three hours, inspiration won out. 

So here it goes:

I am not sure when or why I started taking cooking seriously. Over the last two or three years something just clicked, throwing ingredients together made sense. I would like to think that some of the knowledge came from my year spent in Seattle, while there I participated in a Cooking Matters class, (twice) once in the fall and once in the spring. So the class was the same information wise but it was run by two different groups with different recipes and different techniques. 

I then took a position at the Greenwood Senior Center as a volunteer, as a prep-cook for their daily lunch program. I worked with a charming, wonderful older lady, she was short, spunky and loved to sing in Italian while she cooked. I listened and watched her create warm comforting meals for our guests everyday. She was an inspiration, she always made her dishes with love. I worked at the senior center for four months, given that the time flew by, it was the right place to be a the time. 

Moving on to more recent occurrences, I started writing a story called After the Glory. Within this story is a character named Rachel, she is a freelance writer that has a column in a small local paper. Citing recipes and gardening tips, I was inspired to create Recipes from Edna’s Kitchen and Edna’s Recipes for Autumn from her. She is partially modeled after my great grandmother.

All of this cooking and writing has led me to a favorite go to recipe that I would like to share with you all.

Slow Cooker Pulled Pork

Ingredients:

1 4-6 lbs Pork Shoulder Roast

2 oz Hickory flavored Liquid Smoke (about half the bottle)

3 teaspoons Himalayan Pink Salt (enough to cover the roast)

Steps:

Rinse and pat dry Pork Roast

Stab the Pork Roast with a fork repeatedly on all sides

Rub crushed Himalayan Pink Salt into the Pork Roast

Place the Pork Roast into a Slow Cooker (Crock-Pot)

Pour Liquid Smoke over the Pork Roast

Cook on high for 4-6 hour or on low for 8-10 hours

When finished cooking, meat should be tender, taking two forks shred up meat.

Now for the good stuff Katsu Sauce.

Katsu Sauce

Ingredients:

1\2 cup Sugar

1\2 cup Ketchup

4 Tablespoons Worchestire Sauce

4 Tablespoons Soy Sauce

1\4 teaspoon Garlic Powder

1\4 teaspoon Paprika

Steps:

Combine all ingredients whisk together add a splash of water to thin out sauce if desired.

A simple recipe and oh so good, I pour the Katsu sauce over the shredded pork and service on a roll with macaroni salad.

There you go my rambling thoughts, feel free to comment or suggest one of your go to recipes.

 

Chances

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So I am not going to lie, I enjoy reading erotica, seriously who doesn’t. I especially enjoy the short experience stories, the I had sex in an elevator, or she took me in the restroom. So I spend time browsing for erotic stories, the #nsfw ones, and when they are written well, I enjoy the experience.

One day as I was looking through a short fiction site that advertised their 8000 plus erotic story collection, I came across this one particular story. It was titled “The Yellow School Chair” it peaked my curiosity, so I clicked on it.

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The Yellow School Chair

From the moment I laid eyes on her, I wanted her. She was hot, short, curvy but cut she swam and biked. She was well toned, with shoulder length dirty blond hair, and dark green eyes. So I hit on her, and before I knew it we were down stairs in the campus library. I showed her the archive room, no one ever goes in there. It was a room full of bookshelves, boxes and clutter. I pulled out a yellow plastic school chair and placed it in the middle of the room. I asked her to have a seat. I walked around her, standing behind her, I ran my hands down her neck rolling my thumb over the scar at the base of her neck.

~ ~ ~ ~

I stopped reading, I reached up and ran my fingers across the back of my neck. There is no way that this is one of my personal experiences that someone else is writing about. It is a small world and all, but what are the chances, that someone I slept with in college, first off wrote about it, and secondly that I randomly found it. I thought about this for a moment, check who the author was. Which wasn’t any help because it was under a username. I continued reading, might as well see how it turned out.

~ ~ ~ ~

I ran my hands down her arms, then down her sides, I grabbed the bottom of her t-shirt and pulled it up over her head. I walked around to the front of the chair and kneeled down in front of her. I kissed across her collarbone and down in between her breasts. I slid her bra straps off of her shoulders and un fastened her bra, it fell to the floor. I took her soft brests into my hands carressing them, then I sucked on her nipples making them hard. She put her head back and moaned, as she ran her fingers through my hair. I nibbled and sucked on her breasts, rolling my tounge around her nipples. I moved back from her and motioned for her to stand up, she did and I unbuttoned, unzipped and slid her jeans off of her. I kissed her stomach and squeezed her ass, then I hooked my thumbs into the hips of her panties and slid them off. I asked her to sit back down and spread her legs, she did and I moved down between her soft thighs and lightly licked her pussy. She moaned and I slid my tounge into her, tasting her, feeling her. I sucked and licked sliding my tounge in and out of her. She squirmed and moaned I loved hearing her moan. I then slid my fingers inside of her, thrusting them in and out of her now drenched pussy. She bit her lip, pushed back against me and let out a scream, I keep fingering her. Till she begged me to stop.

Well that was intense, to read one of your own personal experiences, told by someone else. Once again I wonder what were the chances.

Quick Fix

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Prom

As I am sure we all have our own prom stories, this is mine. I was a Senior dating a Junior in High School, as so we attended his Junior prom. This Junior prom was being held in a elementary school gymnasium.

This being my first and only prom, I borrowed a dress from a friend. It was a nice dark green gown that came down to just above my knees, we danced and talked.

As the night progressed I noticed my friend not appearing to be having a good time. His girlfriend was off being a social butterfly and he just looked miserable sitting all alone. My date at the time was being preoccupied with other friends.

So I went over to my lonely looking friend, who I had a history of messing around with. I leaned over and whispered into his ear.

“Count to ten then follow me,” he smiled at me.

I left the gym and found an unlocked classroom down the hallway, he came walking down the hallway and I grabbed him by the arm and lead him into the open classroom.

I locked the door and left the lights off, I then walked over to the teacher’s desk, I removed my panties and took a seat on the edge of the teachers desk. I pulled up my dress and he walked over and stood in front of me.

We kissed and he dropped to his knees in front of me and started to lick and suck my pussy. I spread my legs further and leaned back, feeling his tongue slide into me making my pussy wet and wanting.

He tongued at my clit making me let out a moan of pleasure, I ran my hands through his hair pushing him deeper into me. My pussy was dripping from his tonguing and I wanted him to fuck me.

I pushed him back and he stood up and I undid his pants and took his hard cock into my hand and started stroking it. He moaned, leaned in and kissed me, I could taste my cum on his lips.

I pushed him back and he sat in the teachers desk chair, I got off the desk and dropped to my knees in front of him. I took his cock into my mouth licking and sucking. Letting it slide in and out of my mouth, I sucked harder and he moaned.

I stopped and stood up leaned into him and said “Please fuck me,”

He got up and turned me around, and put me on my stomach across the teachers desk. He moved my dress up and he slid two fingers into my wet pussy, moving them in and out and making me want to fuck him even more.

He withdrew his fingers and I felt his hard cock, push into my pussy, feeling him thrust into me deep and hard. He moved faster siding in an out of me, making me cum, I felt my body shudder when he came in me.

He moved away from me and I turned to face him.

“Feel better,” I asked. He moved into me and kissed me hard and deep. I let out a sigh.

“Yes,” he said.

 

Junkyard

We ventured out to an old junkyard out away from town to take some photos, my boyfriend considers himself an armature photographer and I his muse.

I have a cute little body, short but firm, slightly muscular but still have my curves. I also will do anything he asks of me. So today we are out at this junkyard, there is an old yellow ford pickup truck that he says is perfect for a shoot.

So we take a few pictures, me standing next to the driver side door bare chested, so that the side mirror is reflecting my breasts in the photo.

Me with my little blue jean cut off shorts pulled slightly down to showcase my little round ass.

Then me all out naked laying on the hood of the truck. It is at this point my boyfriend puts down the camera and comes over to me.

He pulls me to the edge of the hood and spreads my legs, he sucks and licks and enjoys my shaved, wet, tight pussy.

Feeling his tongue plunge deep into my pussy making me cum, I want to feel his hard cock in me. He stepped back and removed his pants, he then mounted the hood of the truck.

He turned me over so that I was on my hands and knees and he slid his hard cock into my wet, pussy. I pushed back against him thrusting him deeper into me, feeling him fuck me and making me cum.

He thrust faster and deeper into me making me yell out in pleasure.

I moved over to face him, we kiss, I sucked on his tongue as he caressed my breasts.

I then leaned down and take his cock into my mouth enjoying the taste and suck, till he moans and cums in my mouth. Enjoying the sensation of his cum hitting the back of my throat and swallowing it down.

 

That one time

He stood in front me, he leaned in and kissed me, deeply. I sucked on his tongue he let out a sigh.

He unbuttoned my jeans, unzipped them and hooked his thumbs into my jeans and panties and slid them down to my ankles. I took off my shirt and bra, dropping them to the floor.

I stepped out of my jeans and panties and sat on the edge of the bed. He kneeled before me and ran his hands along the inside of my thighs moving my legs apart. He gently pushed me back on to the bed and moved himself in between my spread legs.

He gently kissed my pussy, before starting to lick and suck at my clit, feeling his tongue slide in and out of my pussy, making me moan with pleasure. As he licked and sucked at my pussy, I ran my hands through his hair pushing him in deeper.

He was making my pussy so wet and wanting to feel him in me. My breath quickens as his tongue flicked at my clit making me cum. He moved up me kissing my stomach and rubbing my breasts, he pinched my hard nipples making me yell out in pleasure.

As he sucked on my rock hard nipples I slid my hand down to my wet pussy, rubbing at my clit. He moved his hand down to join me and slid his fingers into my pussy making me cum again.

He kissed me and I could taste my cum on his lips. I wanted him, wanted to feel him deep in me, fucking me. Enjoying me making me cum all over his cock. He moved away from me and undressed.

He then lowered himself on to me and slid his hard cock into my wet pussy. Feeling him fill me, his hard cock thrusting deep into me, I let out a yell of passion, it felt so good, so hard and deep. Fucking me harder and faster feeling him slid in and out me making me want to cum.

He stopped and rolled over on to his back I sat up and moved towards him, leaning in and kissing him. I leaned over him and took his erect cock into my mouth and sucked.

I let his cock slid in and out of my mouth feeling it, tasting it, sucking, licking and enjoying it. I straddled his hips and slid his cock into my pussy, slowly moving back and forth letting his cock slide in and out of me. I sat up and ran my hands through my hair, I leaned back and thrust-ed my hips into him.

He let out a moan of pleasure. He reached up and grabbed my breasts, squeezing and rubbing them. I started moving faster and faster fucking him harder and harder. He pulled me down to him and I felt him cum deep in me. He kissed me and we laid there in silence.

 

Once

Standing at the foot of the bed, naked, you stand behind me and brush my hair to the side and gently kiss the back of my neck. Your arms slide around me and you rub my breasts with your hand.

Lightly pinching my nipple. I can feel your body pushing against mine and holding me close to you. I lay on my back in the center of the bed, and run my hand down to my pussy, I let my fingers slide into my pussy, rubbing my clit making me moan.

You stand there at the foot of the bed and watch me finger myself making my pussy wet. You rub you hard cock, sliding your hand up and down the shaft, wanting to be inside me to feel my tight, wet pussy around your hard cock.

You spread my legs and lower yourself to my pussy. You slowly kiss and lick at my pussy, feeling your tongue slide into me. You lick and suck at my clit, making me so wet and wanting to cum.

I feel your tongue plunge deeper into my pussy and you make my body shudder and cum. You move up my body kissing and rubbing, sucking on my erect, hard nipples.

You run your hand down my body and slip your fingers into my pussy. Feeling your fingers slide deep into me, feeling how wet you make me.

Making me moan and move with your fingers pushing deep into my pussy. You kiss me and I can taste my cum on your lips. I slide my tongue into your mouth and kiss you deeply.

You lay on your back and I move down to your erect, hard cock, I run my hand down the shaft and I slide your cock into my mouth, sucking lightly at first and then I let it slide deeper into my mouth and I suck hard, feeling your cock slide in an out of my mouth.

Making you moan, making you want to cum feeling me suck your cock. I straddle your hips and slide your hard cock into my wet pussy, slowly moving back and forth, sliding your cock deep and then sliding it almost all the way out, just to let you push back in, harder and deeper.

Thrusting my hips against you, feeling you in me, fucking me, making me wet and wanting to cum all over your cock. Wanting to fill you cum deep in me.

You move me off of you and I lay on my stomach, you move in behind me and pull me up to my knees, you slide your cock into me and thrust hard, fucking me fast and hard, making me scream out in pleasure.

We lay there just listening to each-other breath, your hand on my breast rubbing my nipple, moving into me and kissing me, letting me suck on your tongue, you move down and suck on my nipple.

Rubbing my breasts and sucking on my hard, erect nipple. Laying there just breathing, feeling and enjoying the moment.

 

I Won’t Tell

I had a conversation with an slightly older guy who was married and attending college, I walked up to married student housing with him one afternoon so he could grab lunch from home.

I was asking him what was wrong with me that I couldn’t maintain a relationship at that point with anyone. He told me as we were standing in his apartment making ham and cheese sandwiches, that it wasn’t me and if he wasn’t married he would definitely take advantage.

After having this heart to heart discussion he came over to me and put his hands on my shoulders and leaned in and kissed me sweetly. He then whispered in my ear, believe me it’s taking a lot restraint to not bend you over this couch and enjoy every inch of you. I was flattered.

I grabbed his wrist and looked him in the eye, “I won’t tell,” I leaned into him and kissed him.

He slid his tongue into my mouth and kissed me, deep and hard. He unbuttoned my jeans and slid them down along with my panties to the floor. He went to his knees and started to lick and suck my pussy.

I let out a moan of pleasure feeling his tongue slide into my pussy and suck on my clit. I ran my hands through his hair and pushed him deeper into me.

My body shuddered as I came. He stood up and kissed me I could taste my cum on his lips.

He undressed and I removed the rest of my clothes, he bent me over the back of the couch and slid his fingers in and out of my wet pussy making me cum again. We moved to the front of the couch and he sat down.

I dropped to my knees and took his erect cock into my mouth, letting it slide in and out of my mouth. Sucking, licking and rubbing my hand long his shaft. He moaned and moved me up to him.

I straddled his hip and slid his hard cock into my wet pussy. He rubbed my breasts and pinched my hard nipples, then he sucked on my nipple as I fucked him.

Thrusting him deep into me, he came and we sat there, just breathing, kissing and holding each other.

 

Not A Word

They entered the small apartment, he closed the door behind them, and flipped the deadbolt. He faced her, she was pretty with her dark red hair that fell just past her shoulders, her ample chest being highlighted by her low cut black top and those jeans, nice tight accenting her ass.

He moved towards her and she put her arms around his neck and he kissed her, gently at first, then parting her lips with his tongue and sliding into her mouth. She let out a moan and he ran his hands down to her ass and squeezed.

She pushed up into him and ran her hand down to his crotch and rubbed at his erect cock. He let out a moan. She dropped to her knees, unbuttoned his jeans and pulled down his boxers along with his jeans.

He stepped out of them and she took his hard cock and ran her hand up and down his shaft. She slowly started licking and sucking on the tip of his cock. Then slid it into her mouth and sucked letting him slide in and out of her mouth.

He ran his hands through her hair and keep fucking her mouth. She could taste his cum as it hit the back of her throat and she swallowed.

She stood up and removed her shirt and jeans. He then caressed her breasts and reached around and undid her bra, letting it drop to the floor. He led her to the bedroom and she laid on the bed, he removed her pink lace panties and tossed them on the floor.

He slowly moved up her body running his hands up her legs and kissing the inside of her thighs. He gently spreed her legs apart and started kissing and licking her pussy.

She arched her back and ran her hands through his hair. He slid his tongue into her warm, wet pussy, licking at her clit and making her cum.

He slid two fingers into her wet pussy pushing them deep into her and making her moan loudly. He moved up to her breasts and sucked on her erect nipple as he fingered her harder and faster, He bit down on her nipple and she yelled out, he moved up and kissed her deeply. She could taste her cum on his lips.

He tuned her over on to her stomach and she got up on her hands and knees. He slid his cock into her wet pussy, thrusting his cock into her deep, hard and fast. She pushed back against him feeling him go deeper into her. He could feel her pussy tighten as she came on his cock. He came deep in her and they collapsed onto the bed.

 

The Act

We entered the hotel room, my heart racing, butterflies in my stomach. I knew what I was doing but it still seemed surreal.

We had, had a sexual relationship way back during my first year of college. There was a serious sexual attraction between us that we openly acted upon.

Now so many years later I am in a hotel room with him ready to act on this attraction once again.

He is also married which make this all the more strange of a thing to be doing.

He takes a seat on the edge of the bed, I pull a chair from the table and sits in front of him.

“You know how crazy this all is, don’t you?” I asks.

“Yes I do, but we’re here, we have come this far,” he says. I take his hand and take a deep breath.

“It was so long ago and we never even kissed,”

Our relationship was one of two people in a place in their lives that they just needed each other physically.

The no kissing was one of those rules that you give yourself as a young adult so as to not have an emotional attachment to someone. One of those thing that you figure out much later in life that was complete bull shit.

“No time like the present,” he leans into me.

Our lips meet, I feel his tongue slide into my mouth. I lightly suck on his tongue and then slips my tongue into his mouth, he lets out a moan.

“Not bad, guess it was worth waiting for,” I smile at him.

I think once more about how this is crossing a line, I stand up, put the chair back, I kick off my shoes and starts to undress.

“So are we going to do this?” I ask. He gets up and moves towards me, he kisses me deeply.

We shead our clothes and lay on the bed. He runs his hand along my thigh pausing at my pussy then gently runs his fingers across my pussy, sliding his fingers into me. I arch my back and lets out a moan. He leans down and sucks on my nipple as he pushes his fingers into me making me moan.

I push him back and move down to take his erect cock into my mouth, sucking lightly at first and then harder. Running my hand up and down his cock making him moan. I straddle his hips and slowly slide his cock into my wet, tight pussy.

I sit up and thrust my hips against him, I lean back and he reaches up and grabs my breasts, squeezing and pinching my hard nipples. I move quicker letting his cock slide almost all the way out of my pussy and then plunging it back into me.

He grabs me by the hips and rolls me off of him, so that I am now on my back. He slowly moves down my body, kissing my neck and breasts. He spreads my legs, sliding his tongue into me sucking and licking at my clit making me want to cum.

I shudder from the intensity of feeling his tongue in me, licking, sucking, making me cum.

He moves up to kiss me, I can taste my cum on his lips, he slides his cock into me and thrusts deeply. I arch my back and push into him. He thrusts faster into me, kissing me as he cums.

We lay there on the bed letting what had occurred sink in, he moves over and just holds me, feeling me breath next to him. Like any affair it just ends, we shower and walk away. Back to living our lives just as before.

Grace’s Escapades

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Bus Stop

I work as a waitress at a bar and grill called The Lodge, I work late afternoon early evening. I walk pass the same guy at the same bus stop every day, he’s good looking early 30’s, average build about 6 feet tall, short dark hair and wear’s glasses.

He is either coming home from work or going to work, I can’t quite tell, he is always wearing black work boots, dark blue work pants, and a black Carhartt work jacket. He enjoys an energy drink along with a cigarette every time I see him, so one day I took it upon myself to pass out some two for one drink special flyers on my way to work.

I crossed the street and walked past the bus stop and made eye contact with his dark green eyes, and smiled at him as I invited him to get a drink at The Lodge. He took the flyer and smiled at me. I told him it would be lovely to see him sometime during happy hour.

Two nights later there he was, he took a seat at the bar and I asked what I could get him. He ordered a rum and coke. We smiled at each other, made small talk he stayed till my shift was over.

We walked back to my place just down the block from work. We entered my small studio apartment he took off his jacket and stood in front of me, he un-clipped my hair and ran his hand through my dark red shoulder length hair and leaned in and kissed me.

“We going to exchange names?” he asked.

“Does it matter?” I asked.

“Not really,” he said.

I felt his tongue slide into my mouth and I let out a moan. I pushed into him and slid my arms around him, he ran his hands down to my ass and pulled me in to him.

I dropped to my knees and undid his pants, I took his erect cock into my mouth and slowly started to lick and suck. I slid his cock deep into my mouth and sucked harder he let out a moan.

I stroked his cock while I let it slide in and out of my mouth. I stopped and stood up in front of him and he kissed me deep and hard. He then undid my jeans and slid them along with my panties down to my ankles and I stepped out of them, he then pulled off my shirt and removed my bra.

I sat on the edge of the bed and he pushed me back on to my back, he removed his shirt and lowered himself down between my legs. He gently kissed my inner thigh and slowly moved up to my pussy.

He started licking and sucking at my clit, making my pussy wet and wanting. He slid his tongue deep into my pussy and sucked on my clit. Making me moan and push my hips up to him. He slid his fingers into me, and I let out a deep moan, feeling his fingers slide in and out of my wet pussy.

I wanted him, I wanted to feel his hard cock in me. He moved up and ran his hands over my breasts and pinched my hard nipples, he took my nipple into his mouth and sucked. He moved to my mouth and kissed me I could taste my cum on his lips.

He slid his hard cock into my wet pussy and thrust deeply into me. I arched my back and wrapped my legs around his back and pushed into him. He moved off of me and turned me over onto my stomach.

I got up on my hands and knees, he moved in behind me and slid his cock into my pussy, thrusting deep and hard. Making me cum and yell out. He moved faster and harder into me the he came deep in me. We laid next to each other breathing in the moment.

 

The One Stop

For convenience’s sake I frequent the One Stop that is down the street from my apartment. On a bad day I will drop by at least three time, because you always need something else that you had previously forgotten.

So there is this guy that works the counter, his name is Drew, I know this because he has one of those red work vests that says

“I am Drew How may I help you” on the nameplate.

He’s cute, medium build, has that thing with his hair, where you just want to run your hands through it, short but full. A kind face, deep green eyes and a nicely trimmed full beard.

After a few months of daily flirting I decided to give him an invite to The Lodge, a bar and grill where I work the late afternoon, early evening shift. On this particular day I was buying a chocolate milk and a cranberry muffin for a quick snack before work. As he was handing me back the change from my purchase I handed him a two for one drink special flyer for the Lodge. I gave him a smile, he glanced at it and gave me a smile back. I took my purchase and headed out the door to work.

Towards the end of my shift he came in, took a seat at the bar and ordered a beer, we did the whole glance across the room thing and had come to a silent agreement. After my shift we walked the few blocks back to his place. A small one bedroom apartment, with just the essentials small kitchen area, tiny bathroom and a room that just barely fit a full size bed and nightstand.

As we entered the apartment Drew asked “So do you have a name?”

“Maybe,” I answered and smiled.

As we entered the apartment I noticed a stereo and very nice guitar sitting in the corner of the living room.

“What’s that for?” I asked out of curiosity.

“I am in a band, the store is just a day job,” Drew answered, I smiled at him.

He turned and stood in front of me I ran my hands through his hair, he leaned in and kissed me. He took my hand and lead me into the bedroom, he switched on the lamp that was sitting on the nightstand. He emptied his pockets on to the nightstand, keys, cash, change, wallet and phone.

I took off my shoes and jacket, then I pulled my shirt off over my head, and undid my jeans and slid them down to my ankles and stepped out of them.

He moved over to me and kissed my neck while sliding his hands around my waist and pulling me into him to. I could feel his hard cock up against me. I reached down and undid his jeans and slid them down so he could step out of them.

Drew took off his shirt as I took his hard thick cock into my mouth, letting it slide slowly in and out of my mouth. He let out a moan and ran his hands through my hair.

I took him deeper and sucked harder until he pushed me back. I stood up and he, laid me on the bed and removed my panties, I took off my bra and dropped it on the floor.

He lowered himself down and started kissing my inner thigh, moving up to my pussy. He slid his tongue into me and I let out a moan of pleasure, feeling him lick and suck at my clit making me so wet.

He moved up my body kissing and rubbing along my stomach to my breasts. He pinched and sucked on my hard nipples while rubbing my breasts. He moved up and I sat up enough to thrust my tongue into his mouth and suck on his tongue kissing him hard and deep.

I took his cock in my hand and rubbed it along my wet pussy, letting him slide slightly in and then out, a little teasing.

“Fuck,” Drew said as he moved off of me and reached for a condom off of the nightstand.

He leaned down and said, “Turn over.”

I flipped over on to my stomach and moved up on to my hands and knees in the center of the bed. He moved behind me and slid his fingers into my pussy, rubbing at my clit and making me want to cum. He withdrew his fingers and slid his thick hard cock into my wet pussy.

I let out a moan and pushed back against him, wanting to feel him deeper in me. He moved faster and harder, fucking me and making me cum all over his cock.

Drew came and collapsed on the bed next to me. I awoke realizing that we had fallen asleep. I stepped into the shower and felt the warm water run down my body I let out a deep sigh, I soaped up and rinsed off. Drew joined me in the shower he put his arms around me and kissed the back of my neck, I turned to face him and he lowered himself to his knees and pulled me in to him.

He slid his tongue into my pussy licking and sucking on my clit. I moaned and held myself up against the shower wall, it felt so good, feeling his tongue slide into me I let myself cum. He got up and kissed me deeply, I stepped out of the shower, grabbed a towel and returned to the bed. Drew showered and joined me on the bed.

“So are we going to say anything about this little experience?” Drew asked.

“Not sure,” I answered. I dressed and got ready to leave.

“So do I at least get to know your name?” He asked.

I smiled leaned over kissed him, and whispered in his ear “It’s Grace.”

 

Seaside

Grace and James drove out of town towards the ocean. It was a sun filled hot summer day and heading out to feel the cool breeze of the ocean is just what Grace needed.

Grace had picked up James, a good looking guy in his mid 30’s at a bar in downtown Portland. James had broad shoulders and sandy blond hair that he wore slightly shaggy. James had been long distance runner in college and still had the legs and abs to show for it.   

James had bought Grace a drink and he explained his outlook on life, how it was an open road full of possibility. Grace was sure this was a pick up line, but he was good looking and very nice to talk with, so being Grace she thought what the hell.

They drove out towards Seaside to enjoy the day by the water, James was driving Grace’s Honda and Grace was running her hand up and down James leg, she ran her hand over to his crotch and gave him a generous rub though his cargo shorts. Grace was wearing a light blue bikini under an open over shirt and shorts. James moaned as she rubbed harder at his crotch.

James turned into a rest stop parking lot, he shut off the car and leaned over towards Grace, he kissed her long and deep letting her suck at his tongue. He slid her shirt off and rubbed her breasts. Grace moaned and moved over to remove her top and bottoms.

James leaned over to her and sucked at her hard nipple, while rubbing and pinching at her other breast. He ran his fingers down to her waiting pussy, he slowly slid his finger into her wet, tight pussy.

Grace arched her back, let out a moan, letting his fingers slide deeper into her. James fingered her rubbing at her clit, making her wet.  

He kissed her and sat back into his seat, Grace leaned over him and undid his shorts, taking his erect cock into her mouth and sucked, lightly letting his cock slide in and out of her mouth, then sucked harder while running her hand up and down his shaft.

Making him moan, Grace sucked and rubbed till James pushed her away from him.

“Please fuck me,” he begged. Grace straddled his hips and slowly slid his hard cock into her wet pussy, they both let out a moan as she moved back and forth, thrusting his cock deeper into her. She moved faster and he pushed deeper into her.

He kissed her and felt her pussy tighten around his cock as he came in her. She moved off of him and into her seat she redressed and smiled

“There now can we go to the beach?” James just smiled started the car and continued on towards Seaside.  

Left Out

A roommate Grace once had wandered into her mind as she drove, Kelly who always looked like the innocent girl next door, had shared an apartment with Grace one semester in college. Grace heard them come in, they had to know she was home.  

She listened to them stumble into Kelly’s bedroom. Grace quietly entered the hallway and looked into the other room, the desk lamp was on and she could see them laying on the bed naked.  

Kelly and whoever she had brought home for the night. He was on top of her and she was moaning. Grace crept closer to the slightly open door and watched as he sucked on her nipples and slipped his fingers into her pussy, he then thrust his cock into her and she let out a moan of pleasure. Grace was watching intensely and found that her own hand had slipped between her thighs and her fingers were rubbing her pussy.  

Grace let out a moan and he looked at her, Grace froze and their eyes meet. Grace caught her breath and returned to her room, she listened as they finished with moans and screams of pleasure. Grace laid in bed and he came into her room wearing a towel and closed the door behind him.

He held his finger to his lips and gestured shh… He approached her bed and removed her blanket and sheet. He gently spread her legs and lowered himself down to her, he licked and sucked at her pussy making her moan and cum.  

Grace just laid back and took it all feeling his tongue in her, making her cum. He stopped dropped the towel and moved up to her mouth and kissed her deeply she could taste her cum on his lips. He slid his hard cock into her and she let out a moan. Feeling him fuck her deep and hard she came with him.

He kissed her and whispered to her… “Didn’t want you to feel left out.”

 

Grace and Tiffany

During Grace’s third year of college she developed an itch, a desire that she didn’t quite understand at the time. She carved attention and found the attention she wanted from flirting and sleeping with guys. She felt like something else was wanted, companionship or familiarity maybe, guys are just that guys, fun to fuck but not much there in substance sometimes. Grace had become fascinated with a woman in her swimming and yoga class, her name was Tiffany.

Tiffany was slim, short and had long brown hair that fell to her waist she wore it in a long braid most of the time. Her eyes a deep green, her skin pale but warm, Grace watches her shower after their swimming and yoga classes.

As the warm water runs down Grace’s body she glances at Tiffany who is showering across from her. Wanting to approach her to stand behind her, slid her long wet hair to one side so that she can lean down and softly kiss her neck, while running her hands around to cup her small soft breasts, that are just enough to fill Grace’s hand.

Grace faces the wall and rinses the soap from her hair and body, she turns off the water and grabs her towel. Grace goes into the dry sauna and sits on the wooden plank bench. She closes her eyes and thinks about Tiffany how she longs to take her into this sauna lay her down and slowly kissed her entire body. Grace’s hand has slipped between her legs and her fingers are gently rubbing along her pussy, she lets out a slight moan. She hears the door to the sauna swoosh open.

“Don’t let me interrupt you,” A soft voice says. Grace opens her eyes and sits up. She smiles warmly at Tiffany who is now sitting alongside her.

Grace clears her throat and then thinks, I wonder what would happen…Without finishing the thought she leaned over towards Tiffany and kissed her square on the lips. She started to pull back, but Tiffany put her hand on the back of Grace’s neck and pulled her in. Grace could feel Tiffany’s tongue slid into her mouth as she kissed her back deeply.

Tiffany let her towel fall and Grace let go of hers, Tiffany ran her hand along Grace’s shoulder and down to her breasts, she caressed Grace’s breasts and then leaned down and sucked on her erect nipple. Grace moaned and ran her hand through Tiffany’s hair.

“Do you want to move this to somewhere more comfortable?” Tiffany asked. Grace just nodded.

The left the sauna, got dressed and ventured to Tiffany’s apartment.

Tiffany rented a small one bedroom apartment on the second floor of a older style building just down from campus. It was small and run down but at least it was convenient, cheap and somewhat clean. Which are all pluses to a college student trying to make it all work.

Tiffany took Grace’s hand and lead her up the narrow stairs to the apartment. She unlocked the door and they entered, there was a couch with dark blue and yellow flowers on it, a dinged up coffee table and a small t.v. sitting on an end table. There were dark sheets hanging across the one large window and a small table with two chairs in the kitchen area. The carpet was the lovely 60’s dark rust shag variety and did nothing to help pull the room together.

“Not much, I know, but it works for now,” Tiffany said as Grace took in the room.

Grace smiled at her. Tiffany put her stuff down and stood in front of Grace.

“Now where were we,” Tiffany took Grace’s hand and leaned in a kissed her. Grace kissed her back and let out a sigh.

“Do you have to be anywhere soon?” Tiffany asked.

“No, I just want to be here,” Grace answered.

Tiffany took Grace into the bedroom. The small room with a full size bed nicely made up with a comforter patterned with purple flowers, a small three drawer dresser and a black floor lamp. Tiffany turned on the lamp, took off her shoes, shirt and jeans.

She stood in front of Grace in her pink satin bra and matching bikini cut panties. Tiffany ran her fingers through Grace’s hair moving it away from her face, she moved in and kissed her gently on the lips.

“I want to taste you, feel you and make you cum,” Tiffany whispered in Grace’s ear. She helped her remove her clothes, they laid on the bed, Grace in her white cotton panties and lace bra.

Tiffany continued to slowly kiss down Grace’s body, down her neck, to her breasts, she undid Grace’s bra and removed it. Then pinched Graces nipples till they were hard and she sucked on them slightly biting at Grace’s erect nipple. Grace moaned.

“A little pain with your pleasure,” Tiffany said as she moved down kissing Grace’s stomach.

When she reached the top of Graces white cotton panties, she pulled them down to Grace’s ankles and off of her. Tiffany gently pushed Grace’s legs apart and moved in between them, running her hands along the inside of her thighs, Grace closed her eyes, wanting what was to come next.

Tiffany kissed Grace’s inner thigh moving up to taste Grace’s pussy. She licked and sucked gently at her, Grace could feel Tiffany’s tongue sliding in and out of her, making her pussy wet and wanting to cum.

Grace moaned and Tiffany pushed deeper into her, making her moan louder. Tiffany slipped two fingers into Grace’s now wet pussy, rubbing along her clit making her moan and push back. Grace had her hands on Tiffany’s head pushing her away and then pulling her in. Tiffany licked and sucked at Grace’s clit as Grace yelled out and came for her, tasting her sweet cum.

Tiffany moved up to kiss Grace. Grace enjoyed tasting herself on Tiffany’s lips. Grace moved and pinned Tiffany to her back in the center of the bed.

“My turn,” Grace said. She kissed Tiffany long, deep and hard, sucking at her tongue.

Grace unfastened Tiffany’s bra and tossed it to the floor, she ran her hands over Tiffany’s breasts caressing and lightly pinching her nipples. Grace ran her hand down to Tiffany’s panties and rubbed her pussy through her panties. Applying more pressure each time, Tiffany moaned and tried to move, Grace held her down, and keep stroking her pussy, making Tiffany quite wet.

Grace moved up and slid her tongue into Tiffany’s waiting mouth.

“Turnover,” Grace told Tiffany.

Tiffany turned over onto her stomach, Grace moved in behind her and pulled her hips up so that she was on her hands and knees in the center of the bed. Grace pulled Tiffany’s panties down and slid two fingers into Tiffany’s tight wet pussy. Tiffany let out a moan and pushed back against Grace’s finger.

Grace then smacked Tiffany’s ass, hard.

“Fuck,” screamed Tiffany. Grace then rubbed where she had slapped Tiffany’s ass and slid her fingers back into her pussy. Grace moved her fingers deeper and harder into Tiffany’s now dripping pussy, Tiffany started to moan and beg Grace for more.

“Please Grace, please eat me,” Tiffany begged. Grace slapped Tiffany’s ass again making it bright red, she then moved her over and spread her legs, Grace licked and sucked at Tiffany’s pussy, sliding her tongue back and forth against her clit. Tiffany shuddered and grabbed Grace’s hair.

“Fuck Grace,” Tiffany yelled. She came and Grace enjoyed tasting Tiffany’s cum.

 

Westside Motel

Grace opened her eyes, and tried to focus on the bedside alarm clock. It was flashing 12:00.

“Fuck,” Grace said as she sat up and took in where she was.

Naked on a bed in a crappy motel room, except this time there were two other bodies in the room with her. Two guys laid naked on the bed with her. She looked took in the trashed room and headed to the bathroom.

Grace splashed some water on her face, looked in the mirror at her bloodshot eyes and pale complexion. She ran her fingers through her stringy red hair and got into the shower.

While she soaped up and washed off the night’s festivities, the details of last night’s events slowly seeped back to her.

She had gone out to a bar to shoot pool and have a good time, Grace had gotten to a point in her life where she wanted to embrace the now. She felt that her adventuring party days were fleeting. She needed to feed that craving to get her fix that sexual high that drove her more and more.

Grace entered the Late Night Spot around 10 pm, wearing her tight jeans and even tighter tee-shirt. She ordered her usual a beer followed by a shot of Jack. She sized up the room took note of the guys playing pool and made her decision to take at least one of them home. The two guys shooting pool were good looking average mid 40’s and appear to be enjoying their night out. Grace approached the pool table and invited herself to play the winner of the next game.

Grace did what she does best, flirting leaning in over the table, rubbing up against each of them in passing. She won the first set of three games and then challenged them to a best of five. After about two hours of flirting, small talk and four more shots of Jack Grace was more than ready to take one or both of them home.

Grace put her cue down on the pool table and invited the guys back to her motel room. They both agreed. In the parking lot Grace introduced herself to them.

“Grace,” she said as she put out her hand to the first guy.

“Tom,” he said and shook her hand. She then faced the other guy.

“Robert,” he said and also shook her hand.

“You can follow me, there’s a Westside Motel about a mile down,” Grace said and got into her honda.

Tom and Robert got into their truck and followed Grace to the motel. Grace parked in front of room 14 and the three of them entered. Tom a good looking, average guy, made the first move, he stood in front of Grace and kissed her, he slid his hands around her waist and down to her ass and squeezed pulling her into him. Grace kissed him back and could feel his hard cock up against her. She ran her hand down to his crotch and rubbed. Tom let out a moan and ran his hand over her breast, stopping to pinch her erect nipple. She took a step back from Tom and removed her shirt, showing off her dark purple satin bra.

Robert who had been watching all this go down, moved across the room to them and stood behind Grace. He moved her red shoulder length hair to one side and leaned down to kiss her neck while rubbing her shoulders. Grace stepped back into him and could feel his hard cock rub up against her. Grace let out a moan and Tom moved in to kiss her. Tom moved down the front of Grace unbuttoning her jeans and sliding them down to her ankles, she stepped out of them. Tom then moved back up her legs kissing the inside of her thighs and removed her pink lace panties. Tom started to lick and suck her pussy.

Robert unfastened Grace’s bra and let it drop to the floor, he caressed her breasts and pinched her erect nipples. Grace let out a moan and ran her hands through Tom’s hair pushing him deeper into her.

Tom stood up and kissed Grace, she moved over and sat on the edge of the bed. Robert took out a bottle of Jack Daniels from a bag of groceries that Grace had gotten earlier. Opened it, took a drink, he then handed it to Grace, she took a drink and handed it off to Tom who also took a hit and put the bottle down on the table. Tom then moved over towards Robert and kissed him. The two guys then shed their clothes and joined Grace on the bed.

Grace laid in between the two of them she kissed Robert and then rolled over to kiss Tom. Grace moved down and took Tom’s hard cock into her mouth. Letting it slide in and out while running her hand up and down his shaft. Robert moved towards Tom and started kissing him. Grace keep sucking till she could taste his pre-cum.

Grace then moved up and straddled Tom’s hips letting his hard cock slide into her wet pussy. She moved back and forth pushing him deep into her. Robert moved up and started sucking on Grace’s erect nipples, he ran his hand down and slid his finger into her pussy and rubbed her clit making her moan. Grace started thrusting harder and faster Tom came deep inside her, Grace leaned back and came.

Grace moved off of Tom, took a seat at the table and took a long drink from the bottle of Jack.

“Do either of you have a cigarette?” she asked.

Robert grabbed his jeans from the floor, pulled out a pack and tossed them to her. Grace lit a cigarette and took a long drag, Robert sat at the table with her and lit one as well. Tom took the bottle of Jack off the table and took a few long drinks. They all sat in silence just breathing. Grace was deciding if she was done or if this was going to go to a next level.

“Does anyone need to be anywhere soon?” she asked. Tom and Robert exchanged glances.

“Not really,” Tom answered and downed another swallow of Jack. Grace smiled.

“Good so who’s up for round two?”

Tom got up and went into the bathroom. Robert stood up in front of Grace, took her hand and led her over to the bed. She laid down on the bed and Robert lowered himself between her legs and enjoyed her licking and sucking her pussy. Grace arched her back and moaned when he slid his fingers into her pussy while he was

sucking on her clit, Grace’s body shuddered as she came. Robert moved up her body kissing and caressing it, he kissed her deeply she could taste her cum on his lips. He moved on top of her and slid his hard cock into her wet pussy. Robert let his cocok slid deep into her and then pulled back teasing her with just the tip, making her squirm under him.

“How badly do you want it?” Robert asked.

“Please, please fuck me,” Grace begged.

Robert grinned at her then thrusted deep into her, fucking her fast and hard. Grace yelled out. Robert stopped and turned Grace over onto her stomach. She moved up to her hands and knees. Tom had come out of the bathroom and was watching, rubbing his erect cock. He moved over to Grace and slid his cock into her mouth. She sucked eagerly letting him fuck her mouth. Robert was behind Grace rubbing her pussy. He then slowly and gently pushed his cock into her ass, Grace let out a moan, sucking Tom’s cock harder. Robert slid his cock deep into her ass, fucking her slowly. He then slapped her hard on the ass. Grace cried out letting go of Tom.

Tom just looked at Robert and then moved over and kissed him, Tom continued to stroke his cock as Robert fucked Graces ass. Robert came deep in her ass and Tom came watching. Grace collapsed on the bed enjoying the high.

Robert and Tom went to take a shower and Grace fell asleep.

Grace stepped out of the shower, grabbed a towel and went to find her clothes. She got dressed and left the Westside motel and drove back home to Eric.

Erotic Poetry

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Desire

You are my vice my drug my want my desire.

The things you say the way you make me feel, the deep desire I feel when I am with you when I want you, to be with you to feel you in me, fucking me making me moan and cum.

As I rub my hand along my breasts and pinch my nipple, making them hard. Pinching my nipples hard makes my pussy wet and wanting, running my hand in between my legs, sliding my fingers into my wet pussy and rubbing my clit making myself cum.

Feeling your tongue slide into my mouth, sucking on your tongue. I pull you close to me and I can feel your hard cock pushing up against me. I run my hand down and undo your pants I take your hard thick cock into my hand and stroke it.

Making you moan, and kiss you deeply. I drop to my knees and take your cock into my mouth, sliding it deep into my mouth sucking and tasting you. Feeling your hands run through my hair holding me close to you.

I suck your cock and taste your cum, you moan and pull me up to you. You kiss me deeply and run your hand over my breast, pinching my nipple, and making me moan. You lay me down on the bed and pull off my pants and panties.

You push my legs apart and gently kiss my inner thigh. Moving up to my wet pussy, I shudder as your tongue slides into my pussy and you lick my clit making me drip with cum. I push you deeper into my pussy and moan, wanting to feel your cock in me.

I want to fuck you and feel you thrust deep into me, I want to feel you cum in me.

You are my vice my drug my want my desire.

 

Shower

Fuck…had to go take a shower.

Talking to you, getting that butterfly feeling in my stomach,

you turning me on so much, telling me how you want me and how hard your cock is, that you’re rubbing it.

Becoming breathless, rubbing my breasts, pinching my nipples, sliding my fingers into my wet pussy.

I moved to the bed and laid on my back rubbing at my clit, thinking about you,

making myself so wet and wanting to cum for you.

Sliding my fingers in and out, thinking about wanting your cock in me. Wanting to feel you fuck me.

Had to go take a shower, got in and washed,

then couldn’t stop rubbing my pussy, and thinking about you,

saying fuck me please baby, fuck me, made myself cum again and again.

Got out of the shower and standing with just a towel in the bedroom,

I kept rubbing my breasts and pinching my nipples,

I dropped the towel and fell to my knees and rubbed my pussy till my body shuddered and I came.

I am not sure what you do to me but oh my god.

All I can say is fuck.

 

You

I watch you,

I think about you I wonder what you look like naked.

I picture you standing before me bare chested.

Running my hands across your broad shoulders and down your chest.

Stoping to feel your heartbeat under the touch of my hand.

I kiss your cheek, you need to shave.

I kiss your lips, soft and full.

I slip my tongue into your mouth and gently suck.

You let out a moan and kiss me back.

I drop to my knees.

I take your erect cock into my mouth.

Sucking gently at first, then harder as you moan and run your hands through my hair.

Pushing further, I feel your cum hit the back of my throat and I swallow.

I rise up and kiss you long, slow and deep.

That One Time

He stood in front me, he leaned in and kissed me, deeply. I sucked on his tongue he let out a sigh.

He unbuttoned my jeans, unzipped them and hooked his thumbs into my jeans and panties and slid them down to my ankles. I took off my shirt and bra, dropping them to the floor.

I stepped out of my jeans and panties and sat on the edge of the bed. He knelled before me and ran his hands along the inside of my thighs moving my legs apart. He gently pushed me back on to the bed and moved himself in between my spread legs.

He gently kissed my pussy, before starting to lick and suck at my clit, feeling his tongue slide in and out of my pussy, making me moan with pleasure. As he licked and sucked at my pussy, I ran my hands through his hair pushing him in deeper.

He was making my pussy so wet and wanting to feel him in me. My breath quickens as his tongue flicked at my clit making me cum. He moved up me kissing my stomach and rubbing my breasts, he pinched my hard nipples making me yell out in pleasure.

As he sucked on my rock hard nipples I slid my hand down to my wet pussy, rubbing at my clit. He moved his hand down to join me and slid his fingers into my pussy making me cum again.

He kissed me and I could taste my cum on his lips. I wanted him, wanted to feel him deep in me, fucking me. Enjoying me making me cum all over his cock. He moved away from me and undressed.

He then lowered himself on to me and slid his hard cock into my wet pussy. Feeling him fill me, his hard cock thrusting deep into me, I let out a yell of passion, it felt so good, so hard and deep. Fucking me harder and faster feeling him slid in and out me making me want to cum.

He stopped and rolled over on to his back I sat up and moved towards him, leaning in and kissing him. I leaned over him and took his erect cock into my mouth and sucked.

I let his cock slid in and out of my mouth feeling it, tasting it, sucking, licking and enjoying it.  I straddled his hips and slid his cock into my pussy, slowly moving back and forth letting his cock slide in and out of me. I sat up and ran my hands through my hair, I leaned back and thrust-ed my hips into him.

He let out a moan of pleasure. He reached up and grabbed my breasts, squeezing and rubbing them. I started moving faster and faster fucking him harder and harder. He pulled me down to him and I felt him cum deep in me.

He kissed me and we laid there in silence.

Reach

I am just going to start and we will see how this ends up, I keep some notes I wrote while being homeless last summer, so here it goes.

How to be homeless—find all the resources you can 211 information line is a wonderful start. You will need a phone book, (I stole one out of the motel we stayed in) and a detailed street map. (Had to buy one for $7 at a Fred Myers) Find a shelter program get all the local information possible. Things like where to shower and where you can use the bathroom.

Salvation Army feeding programs, hot meals or bagged lunches. Locate food banks and church pantries. Some shelter programs have communication issues between their staff and volunteers. Day Shelter vs Overnight Shelter- Rules know all the rules, find out the rules. Especially if not told up front, don’t break the rules. Engage the staff learn the routine.

Sitting at a park, because hello, public bathrooms, which are very important to the lost wanderer. Listing to the constant traffic, planes taking off and landing repeatedly and the buses that run every 10 minutes all day every day. The city is loud, since being here I haven’t heard any silence. ( I miss the quiet)

Why do we –people make life changing decisions based on emotion? Where dose that deep seeded feeling of wanting to find something better come from? You’re here it’s stable live your nine to five day job life and be grateful for what you have. Even if your not happy or healthy.

Nope- there are those of us that jump without a safety net, maybe we are delusional or crazy, or we just haven’t found where we are suppose to be. Maybe we have to venture out of the box to know that existing in the box is ok.

It’s the little things, like privacy, getting to be naked in your own space, being able to cut your hair or toenails, without an audience of strangers around. The bathroom- that you take for granted- is the place you miss the most. I give props to this particular public park for it’s upkeep. Although having the bathrooms closed on the 4th of July was a bit annoying.

So you pack up your life into your vehicle, one of the things that you own outright and you drive. You have a point B in mind however the point B is never what you expect it to be. How is it that people that are given, a stable life ie- a house, money, a place to come back to, squander it. I am sorry but you have a house- that is now trashed, with stuff.

Two cases first a girl I meet in Jr. High now lives out in the middle of nowhere, because that’s where her parents retired to, was given land to put her home on and she managed to bag an internet husband. (I know harsh, but seriously) So he works she stays home and sleeps almost all day every day. In a nice four bedroom two bath house that is completely trashed, because she’s depressed, a pack rat (hoarder) and then there are the animals (oh my god the fucking animals) To many cats to count, a hand full of dogs and some full size aquariums all living inside.

All I want is four walls, a ceiling, floor and plumbing that works. A place that I can be safe, happy and clean. To raise my family in and to be able to enjoy our life.

Second case- eight years after witnessing the sad state of the first friends living conditions, we ventured out to our point B once again someone I knew back in High School that I had reconnected with over the lovely world of social media during the last few years. So we stop by and once again here is a house- totally trashed- by laziness, hoarding and depression. This person has two kids, a few cats, a dog, and her mother all living in what use to be a very nice house, with tons of potential.

Crazy, maybe I am missing something, are there more people living this way than I am aware of? Or am I just a little too OCD- with wanting the daily functions of life to be clean and organized.  I am not making labels for every shelf but I am wanting laundry done, dishes done, floors clean, general straightening up of the living space, and a clean bathroom.

But NO I am the one sitting on hard, cold metal bleachers, looking out at a softball field, listing to the constant traffic trying to figure out how to get back to a status of ok.

Tripping Through My Memories

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first kiss

It was summer, I was 14 and I had discovered the music of Queen, which I listened to constantly on my Walkman. I had let my very good friend dye my long dirty blonde hair, red, with permanent hair coloring, my mother was not amused. She let me grow it out and then she chopped it all off at my chin line. I was attending one of those summer camps that teach theater, dance, music and art. I was into art, watercolor, sculpture, calligraphy and film appreciation, that summer we were studding Jodie Foster.

There was a guy, (there is always a guy) he was a little older 16 I think, we had many classes together we talked, hung-out and flirted. Towards the end of camp during our film appreciation class he started taking my pencil out of my hand repeatedly. Film appreciation class was taught in a theater style classroom we sat towards the back of the room and the lights were dimmed, we were finishing up with Silence of the Lambs. Needless to say I was getting quiet annoyed at him. On his third attempt he took my pencil out of my hand and then grabbed my hand and interlaced his finger with mine and gave a little squeeze. We sat there hold hands, it was a new sensation, butterfly’s in the stomach and tingling of goosebumps running up my arms.

By the end of class he had his hand resting on my leg, moving his thumb back and forth over my white jean shorts with paisley blue and purple flowers printed on them. I wore those shorts almost every day that summer, topped off with a purple tee shirt, a belt and earrings. Aw the 90’s way to many belts, earrings, necklaces and hair clips. We left class together and walked out between two buildings, the sky was a crisp blue with a warm breeze, it was quiet and secluded.

He asked me if I had ever been kissed. I of course at that time told him no. He asked if I would like to be kissed. Being someone that doesn’t say no very often to anything, said yes. He said just do what I do, so I did. I stood in front of him and he leaned down and I leaned in and we kissed, I felt his lips press against mine and his tongue slide into my mouth, I sucked on his tongue and then slid mine into his mouth. It felt natural, relaxed and good.

an introduction it anatomy

Towards the end of my Junior year of High School, had a friend, she set me up with a guy to let’s say practice with. This guy was the worst kisser, she did warn me, some people just can’t kiss. But what he lacked in kissing ability he made up for in a hands on anatomy demonstrations.

After school one day we end up over at a baseball field, in the dugout he was demonstrating how to grind. He stood against the wall of the dugout and I move into him I could feel his very nice hard cock pushing up against me through his sweatpants. His hands on my hips pulling me into him, can you feel that he asked, yes, yes I could. He taught me how to breath with another person without having to say anything, just be in the moment with them.

first time

My first public boyfriend, typical boy meets girl, skip class together go to a park get to know one another. After school we went back to his house, because hello latchkey kids no parents around. Side note best time for getting away with things is the hours between the end of a school day and the be home for dinner time. Seriously had more sexual experiences between the hours of 3 pm and 6 pm then any other time in High School. First time making out in his bedroom after school, a typical messy teenagers bedroom, posters of bands on the walls, clothes, books and papers all over the floor, I still don’t know what color the carpet was.

I was sitting on his desk with my shirt unbuttoned and my bra undone, he was sucking on my nipples and leaving hickeys on my neck and shoulders. One of which had to be airbrushed off of my senior picture, my mother did not see the humor in that.

The song now acquainted forever with my first time is 500 miles by the Proclaimers, suppose it could be worse it was the 90’s. He was my first,  I do wish someone had reminded me that it was going to hurt, but that aside it was good. As good as two people not knowing a whole lot about what they were doing at the time, can be. It was quiet and intimate just breathing each other in and enjoying the moment together. It awoke in me this thing a feeling, need, desire, the once you have it you always want it, craving that I had never experienced before. It was now a game, a challenge with a wonderful reward at the end.

first oral

Through my first boyfriend I meet someone that I had instant chemistry with, four of us skipped the last two classes of the day and drove out to the river, to hangout that’s what teenagers do they hangout. My first boyfriend who was more interested in me giving him a hand job whenever possible, was occupying my time doing just that.

My new instant chemistry friend gave us all rides home, one person in the group always has to have a vehicle. We dropped off my boyfriend so he could go to work and the two of us went to my house. He parked and we went into my backyard, there was a spark an instant need to want to be with this person, chemistry, instant attraction. He moved into me and we kissed, it felt like we had an unspoken connection. He was a very good kisser, we didn’t say much just kissed and groped each other. Deep passionate take your breath away kisses, that were very nice.

Even more fun we ended up working together at my first real job during my senior year of High School. We definitely had our moments of pleasure during our time together. He was the first and only guy I ever snuck into my mother’s house. We were co-workers on the closing shift, it was 1 am, I let him into my bedroom, we listened to music, Garth Brooks of all things, I was young and impressionable, didn’t know any better, at least the county music thing was short lived.

He was the first guy to introduce me to oral sex. He unbuttoned my jeans, unzipped them and hooked his thumbs into my jeans and panties and slid them down to my ankles. I took off my shirt and bra, dropping them to the floor. I stepped out of my jeans and panties and sat on the edge of the bed. He knelled before me and ran his hands along the inside of my thighs moving my legs apart. He gently pushed me back on to the bed and moved himself in between my spread legs. He gently kissed my pussy, before starting to lick and suck at my clit, feeling his tongue slide in and out of my pussy, making me moan with pleasure. As he licked and sucked at my pussy, I ran my hands through his hair pushing him in deeper. I let him suck and lick my pussy till I came. We ended up laying in bed discussing the future.

consequences of actions

On to what I consider a miss step in my relationships, on graduation night, I was talked into attending the grad party, and introduced to a guy that I now wish I had not meet, however being that he is a part of my past he at least gets a mention. At the grad party fueled by adrenaline and excitement as well as the realization that High School was now over, and what the hell am I suppose to do now, this guy was a needed distraction from reality. We ended up making out rather quickly that night.

I made it home around 5 am, collapsed into bed, called in sick to work the next morning, then got a call from my new friend to go to the movies. Of course I went, unfortunately I still had that first boyfriend at the time, I got caught up in the excitement of a new person paying attention to me and honestly kinda forgot about him. Not realizing the damage I was about to do, I came home from my outing at the movies to my mother informing me that I can’t string two guys along at the same time. Even though at that point it was three but that is neither here nor there.

So I called boyfriend number one and broke it off with him, destroying his illusion of trust and making him hate me.

I then hung-out with my new found friend, we had one night of trying to have sex that just didn’t go well and ended in stupidity and immaturity.

He went away for school and ended up in prison, he was not very street smart and got himself into situations that he then paid for. He did write me letters from prison and had a few phone calls, he was nice enough to share some very disturbing stories of prison life that I could have done without. I did see him in passing when he came home from his time in prison, he was hanging on a tall leggy blonde and didn’t even acknowledge me.

the strange ones

College was a wonderful place to learn how to flirt and pick up guys for meaningless sex. Or a way of getting my fix without having a relationship attached. Thank you institution for higher learning. So I was introduced to a guy that had gone to a private Christian High School and was raised by a older single mother. We ended up back at his house, he lived at home with his mother. She was out for the evening, we sat at the kitchen table and I asked if he had ever been kissed. He said no, strong Christian beliefs of waiting till you find the one and all.

I ask him if he would like to kiss me, he says yes, I lean in and gently press my lips to his and slowly slid my tongue into his mouth, he reciprocates then broke it off. He got up from the table and passed into the kitchen. I was slightly put off by his response, I got up and moved over to where he was standing, I put my arms around his waist and we embarrassed, I kissed him again and he let out a moan.

He then lead me upstairs to his mother’s bedroom, he turned on the t.v. Star Trek Deep Space Nine was on. He then actually surprised me, he pushed me back on to his mother’s bed, complete with the pink and green flowered comforter and lace trimmed throw pillows. He undid my jeans and slid them down to my ankles along with my panties. He gently moved in and licked and sucked my pussy till I came.

I don’t know if he was rebelling or just embracing the moment but it was good. So in my mind the fine line of Christian beliefs you can’t have intercourse but you can have oral. He became a good friend although we never did anything else sexually.

The ‘oh my God’ what was I thinking ones, a guy I had known slightly in Jr. High, shows back up in my life in college, ok we had a class together he was my ride home from a late evening class. All good, kinda messed around a little, I was a little to forward, he made comments like I can’t believe you just did that, then it got strange, after an afternoon at his house messing around, making out, letting him feel me up, and what not.

He drops the phrase ‘I want your soul.’ I told him it was mine and no, thinking he was kidding. It got quiet. the room filled with a strange vibes, I got an uncomfortable gut feeling, like he was going to take out a knife and do a blood and fire ritual right on the spot kinda feeling. Needless to say that was definitely the end of that.

The only other one that compares is the guy I went out with once, we took a drive and parked made out a little. He then declared during a conversation with others that it was fine to beat the hell out of a women if she didn’t comply. I did spend an interesting night with that guy’s sister watching porn. Out at their house, she raided her parents porn stash, I am all up for watching porn, it was just weird doing it in someone’s else’s parents bedroom.

 

the real fun

I consider myself a natural when it comes to playing pool, I spent many hours shooting pool in the games area of the student center in college, which of course lead to meeting a guy. He watched me play for a few days and then approached me with the line, ‘let me help you with that.’  He came up behind me while I was getting ready to take a shot and showed me that my finger needed to hold the cue like this and to move my arm through the shot. Let’s just say I enjoyed his hands and brushing against me more than the unsolicited advice.

The second time he decided that he needed to assist me in lining up a shot, I whispered to him that we could finish this demonstration in private, if he preferred. He preferred and we ended up in his dorm room. He stood in front of me in his dorm room and said things like, you don’t understand how turned on I am by you, especially leaning over the pool table in those jeans.

He moved towards me and we kissed, deeply, as he ran his hands over my ass, pulling me up and into him. He sat on the bed and I put on some music, I pushed play on his cd player and Name by The Goo Goo Dolls came on. I am not one to judge others musical preferences. I did a strip tease for him, which he enjoyed as he undid his pants and started rubbing his cock while I undressed. I came over to the bed, got on my knees and proceed to suck his cock, he let out a moan. I pushed him on to his back and straddled his hips, sliding his hard cock into my pussy. Enjoying each other I gave him what he wanted and I got what I needed.

On returning to college the fall after my father passed away, all I wanted was to be around people, not necessarily interact with them just know that they were there. I took up hanging out in the student center playing cards, shooting pool, making small talk with strangers, flirting with everyone, guys and girls just for some attention. Should have been going to class more but my mind was not interested in learning at that point, my heart was looking for comfort. My body was looking for some sort of enjoyment to numb the pain of loss.

I started up with a guy in my trigonometry class, flirted with him quickly got to making out in public, because I seriously didn’t care what other thought at that point and was just after the high of physical contact from another person. We meet up in a dorm room, once again a very messy room with papers, books and clothing scattered everywhere. I laid on my stomach on the bed and he started to massage my shoulders, moving his hands down my back and then to my legs. I was at the time wearing purple sweatpants and a gray tee shirt, with nothing else on underneath. Let’s just say underwear at that point in my life just got in the way. He slid my sweats down and I turned over on to my back and he fingered me and ate me out. It was a short lived experience but enjoyable.

Unforeseen

Sometimes in life you meet people that awaken things within you that you never knew you possessed. This guy taught me more about myself, human nature and life during our brief acquaintance. He called me out after class, out of the blue, someone is calling my name as I walk down the hall to go to lunch after an English class. He caught up to me, we went to lunch, had pizza, made small talk about college majors and careers.

Don’t really know how it got to the next level, depraved minds think alike. He asked me to come to his office wearing particular clothing, so I did as requested, I wore black stretch pants and a long gray

button down shirt. I went into his office and he closed and locked the door behind me, we talked for a few and then he told me he had had a dream about me, a dream about being inside me and wanting to fuck me.

I was seeking attention and he was giving it, so he moved over to me and unbuttoned my shirt and caressed my breasts, undid my bra and started to suck on my nipples. He moved me over to the floor next to his desk and I laid on my back, he removed my stretch pants and panties and slid his hard thick cock into me. Feeling him slid in and out of me making me so wet and then fucking me till I came, then feeling him cum in me was just so needed at that point. It felt so good, so much emotional release.

It help to feed that need, the carving that I had been carrying around. Apparently nothing like a really good fuck to help regain clarity on life. The second time with him was in a basement of a building, there was a yellow plastic school chair that I sat in while he kissed, sucked and licked my pussy. Then I sucked his hard thick cock, it felt so good feeling his hard thick cock sliding in and out of my mouth. Sucking and stoking his cock then letting him fuck me hard and deep, I think we were both slightly depraved and in need of a physical release.

The third time was at his apartment, in his bedroom, completely naked and thoroughly enjoying each other to an extreme. I was laying on the bed naked, he was moving towards me spreading my legs, licking and sucking at my clit, feeling his tongue slide into me, his finger pushing into me making me so wet and wanting. He moved up to my breasts kissing them and caressing them sucking on my hard nipples.

Then he lays on his back and I move down to take his hard thick cock into my mouth, sucking and enjoying. I straddle his hips and slowly slid his hard cock into my wet pussy, taking him deep in me, I sat up and lean back he let out a moan of pleasure, he reaches up and grabs my breasts pinching my nipples.

I move faster thrusting him into me deeper, fucking him till we both came and collapsed in utter bliss. Just laying there breathing each other in and enjoying the high. Bizarre side note to this one we never kissed, we used each other for sexual release but never kissed. Kissing is an intimate thing fucking is just a physical need.

going after it

I am a flirt, I started making eye contact with a guy during a class, it was a once a week three hour class that had a ten minute break after the first hour and half. During this break he comes over to me, introduces himself and we chit chat about whatever. Moving on I go find his dorm room a few days later, it’s a late class so this is the after dinner before class time, I find him in his room, at least his room was cleaner than the others I had encountered. There was a mix of Oasis, Pearl Jam and Beck playing on his stereo. He invites me in, we talk about the music playing and then he says ‘I am going to lay down for a few before class, join me.’ Of course I do otherwise why am I here.

I take my shoes off and we lay down together, he starts running his hand along my leg up to the top of my jeans. He unbuttons and unzips my jeans, then slides his hand down between my legs and proceeds to finger me. Without saying anything just enjoying the moment of pleasure, as his fingers are sliding in and out of my pussy.

I feel his hard cock pushing against me, I reach over and rub his cock through his pants, he lets out a moan. I undo his pants and stroke his cock while he is fingering me, making me cum. I slide my hand up and down his shaft until he cums. He stops gets up and says your bad, very bad. He gets some clean clothes and leaves the room. I get up and straighten myself out and that was that. I let him finger me, I gave him a hand job and he decided that I was a bad idea and we went our separate ways. Once again have to question was it just one of those taking advantage of the situation things to enjoy the experience and then having doubt? Why the doubt, did you enjoy yourself, then what’s the problem, no harm, no foul.

While looking for this guys dorm room I ran into a guy that I had photography class with and after a brief conversation about the project due in class and that I was kinda stuck on part of it. A deal was struck, this guy was very nice kinda shy and lacking in experience, since I needed his assistance in class he asked me for a favor, all he wanted was to experience his first kiss, so I helped him out with that.

I moved in towards him and gently kissed his lips, then I slowly slid my tongue into his mouth and he slid his tongue into my mouth and I gently sucked on it. He let out a moan and I moved back, he says one more to make sure I got right, so I let him kiss me again, he was a natural. I think it was at that point that I realized that you can use sex to obtain things.

fractured memories

It’s at this point that I stumble upon my next public relationship, this guy I picked out, I followed him, I initiated the flirting and made the first move. After about a month of flirting and purposely being in the same place at the same time, we were sitting next to each other in the lounge area of the student center with a few mutual friends. I do believe he asked me if I wanted to go to the movies with him. We didn’t go to the movies though, we went for a drive and parked. We talked we made out, it was the beginning of a relationship. At the end of the semester right before winter break of which I was going on vacation with my family for two weeks. He drops the I Love You, on me as it is time for me to not see him for the next two weeks. I was caught off guard, being one that has learned how to give lip service thanks to my mother, always told her what she wanted to here regardless of the truth or what I felt. I said it back to him on the spot. Of course much later I found out that he had said it on a dare to see what I would do. Kinda fucked up, at the time I thought he was sincere.

So at this time in my life I decide to move into the dorms on campus and away from my mother, which of course she was not to happy about. But it had to be done, I needed my independence. I moved into the dorms but I did not live there, I lived in this guy’s bedroom and house with his parents. His parents didn’t seem to mind me being there, they were very nice. I think they were just relieved that their son had a relationship with someone. Personally don’t remember a lot of details during that semester, because when you don’t sleep you don’t make memories. Thankfully I was taking Photography that semester and ended up with a good collection of photos to go with my lack of memories. What I do remember is hanging out at Denny’s drinking coffee till 3 am then collapsing into bed and trying to make an 8 am class.

We spent a good amount of time in bed together, learning that sleeping naked next to someone is a great comfort. He was caring and gentle the sex was, not very memorable apparently, let’s call it traditional, we fucked, usually missionary style, he went to sleep. We were dating, we went to classes, he helped me pass Trigonometry of which I had failed along with World History the semester before. We hung out with groups of people, when to movies and concerts. It seemed to be all good till one day when it just wasn’t. I had moved back to my mother’s house after the semester was over, he wasn’t too happy about that. I can see why we were together a lot, during the semester and then I just went home and kinda left him hanging. No longer having someone to sleep next to is jarring. I went by to see him and something had changed, we tried having sex but it was rushed and felt forced. I think we both knew at that point it was over. He did politely come by my mothers house and break up with me.